Bonjour! \^.^/

Berbicara tentang masa depan, saya memiliki impian S2 diluar negeri. Dan setelah surfing on the internet, ikut seminar overseas, baca pengalaman orang yang kuliah diluar, berbincang dengan temanku yang juga memiliki tujuan yang sama untuk lanjut S2 diluar, saya memutuskan fokus untuk meraih impianku kuliah di Inggris tahun 2014 jika TUHAN menghendaki. :) Saya sudah mencoba mendaftar untuk prospectus dari beberapa Universities yang sesuai dengan jurusan saya sekarang ini dan salah satu Universitasnya kemaren mengirim prospectus Uni mereka ke alamat saYa di Indonesia! Wowww sekali ya Universities di United Kingdom ini. Masih mau sempat-sempatnya dan bersedia ngirimin saya handbook Uni mereka kealamat rumah saya, di Sulawesi lagi :)salah satu Uninya namanya University of Buckingham. :D Baru dapet prospectusnya aja uda seneng, apalagi kalo yang saya terima LOA (Letter of Acceptance) pasti Senengnya kebangetan, Oh LORD. Saya hanya ingin meninggalkan jejak cerita di blog ini untuk melihat tulisanku ini di tahun depan akan menjadi nyata bersama TUHAN. AMIN ^^

Ya. Dan saya memimpikannya semalam! Padahal selama saya bertemu dengannya setahun terakhir, sekitar 5 kali saya memimpikannya, haha. Dan saya juga tidak mengerti kenapa saya bisa memimpikannya padahal saya tidak memikirkannya beberapa hari terakhir, ya saya melihat blognya beberapa hari yang lalu sih tapi sama sekali saya tidak mengingat sosoknya ataupun melihat fotonya beberapa hari ini, sama sekali tidak. Tapi entahlah, saya memimpikannya semalam. Ceritanya, saya menyimpan fotonya didompetku! Dan pose foto dia yang saya simpan didompetnya itu tidak pernah dimasukkannya di facebook ataupun blognya. Di foto itu dia terlihat, ya, Tampan. Tampan sekali. Hahaha. Atau saya memimpikannya karena sebelum saya tidur kemarin menonton film Star Trek Into Darkness dan jujur, saya terpesona dan mata biru-nya Chris Pine benar-benar memikat pandangan! Wkwkwkkk. Entahlah, alam bawa sadar saya, arti dari mimpi semalam, I dunno understand :D

Ada dua hal yang akan saya ceritakan disini, yah boleh di kata: based on experience. Pertama: Minggu lalu, saya mengikuti sebuah seleksi untuk program pertukaran ke luar negeri yang di biayai pemerintah. Waktu membaca persyaratan untuk mengikuti seleksi, saya merasa bahwa saya memiliki kualifikasi tersebut, kecuali satu hal yaitu culture performance. Jujur, saya tidak memiliki satu bakat pun mengenai kebudayaan daerah saya sendiri. Menari, tidak bisa. Badan saya tergolong kaku ketika mengikuti gerakan gemulai tari-tarian, hahaa. Menyanyi lagu tradisional, suara saya termasuk pas-pas an untuk bernyanyi. Dan lagi pula tidak satupun dari lagu daerah yang saya hapal. Jadilah saya memutuskan untuk memainkan Biola, yang saya sendiri juga belum terlalu mahir memainkannya karena saya baru hampir setahun ini mulai mengambil les musik tersebut. Tibalah saatnya culture performance. Jujur, that was the first time for me to perfome my violin skill to all people. So, saya grogi abis. Lagu yang saya bawakan, lagu nasional yang judulnya mengheningkan cipta gagal saya bawakan. Gagal karena ada beberapa nada yang saya salah pencet stingnya dan jadilah lagunya: apa adanya. Dan tentu saja, saya tidak lulus program seleksi tersebut. Tapi saya banyak belajar dari itu, termasuk tentang bagaimana kita harus menguasai diri, tenang dan optimis. Kedua: Beberapa waktu yang lalu saya menelpon teman SMA saya yang satu kota dengan saya sekarang. Saya menelpon dalam rangka mencari subyek untuk skripsi saya. Cerita demi cerita sampai kepada kisah cinta teman-teman SMA yang akhirnya kandas, secara tiba-tiba dia berujar: kamu sendiri gimana? sampai sekarang gag pacaran? Waktu SMA juga gag pacaran sama sekali. Saya terkejut mendengar ucapannya sambil tertawa kencang. Dan saya sendiri juga kaget pada diriku sendiri waktu kata-kata itu tiba-tiba mengucur dari mulutku: iya, waktu itu saya bodoh sekali, terkekang sama istilah first love never dies. Mengharapkan orang yang saya suka dan akhirnya saya sendiri tidak pacaran. Di seberang telepon dia ikut tertawa. Kemudian saya melanjutkan: tapi kemudian semuanya berubah ketika saya kuliah dan bertemu dengan seseorang yang mengubah pandanganku akan semuanya itu. Ya, saya berterima kasih pada seorang pria yang sudah mengubah pandangaku itu. Dia kemudian berujar: cieeee.. Hahaha. Saya sendiri merasa lucu sekali dengan percakapan itu. Selesai mengakhiri percakapan ditelepon, saya kembali berpikir. Kenapa orang-orang sekarang mempermasalahkan kalau kita tidak berpacaran. Sepenting itukah hal pacaran sampai kita harus memiliki pacar. Apakah dengan memiliki pacar merupakan hal yang membanggakan? Bukankah pacaran dalam konteks yang sebenarnya bukanlah sekedar have fun bersama pasangan tapi sebuah komitmen kuat yang kemudian menuju dan endingnya ke pernikahan. Saya benar-benar tidak mengerti pemikiran orang jaman sekarang. Heee. Aneh saja rasanya kalau-kalau orang menitikberatkan pacaran sebagai suatu prestasi yang gilang gemilang, hahaa. Kecuali kalau menikah, ya saya setuju. Meskipun juga jaman sekarang banyak yang memilih untuk single sampai TUHAN YESUS datang ke- 2 kali. Kan semuanya itu kembali ke individunya, semuanya kan tergantung orangnya, tergantung pilihannya dia, iya kan? ^_^

Ya, hari ini saya belajar tentang kehidupan dari Musik. Puji TUHAN akhirnya saya memiliki kesempatan mulai bulan Februari untuk meraih impianku bermain Piano setelah bercita-cita sejak duduk di bangku SMP :D Bermain Piano itu bikin gregetan. Kenapa? Karena tangan kiri dan tangan kanan aktif memencet tuts yang ada, nah, yang gregetannya ketika otak dan jari-jari gag sinkron. Otak bilangnya : pencet nada sol di jari ke empat, eh malah jari ketiga yang mencet nada sol dan it's wrong. Belom lagi temponya musti disesuaikan dengan not-not balok yang tertera di partitur. Nah, saya itu uda biasa kalo main keyboard kadang-kadang temponya di cepetin. Apa saya orangnya kurang sabar ya kayaknya, hehee. Nah, kalo tempo di partiturnya lambat, saya nge-refleks cepetin nadanya. Tiap pertemuan itu, Guru saya sudah bilang: jangan cepat-cepat. Kalo cepat-cepat gag bakalan dapat hasil permainan yang benar. Pelan-pelan. Nikmati. Jangan cepat-cepat. Hari ini dia juga kembali mengingatkan itu. Dia bilang lagi: dari musik kita bisa belajar. Dan itu tidak hanya diterapkan di musik saja tentang topik 'jangan cepat-cepat itu' karena dari musik kita belajar yang namanya Kedisiplinan dan itu berpengaruh dan berharga penerapannya di kehidupan baik dilingkungan kerja, sekolah, dan saya ingat dengan sikon saya sekarang yang lagi nyusun skripsi, terkadang saya pengen cepet-cepet ngerjain tanpa menikmati prosesnya sehingga yang ada malah gag bagus karena saya terkadang asal dan revisi dosen yang tergolong perfeksionis membuat saya stress. Tapi Puji TUHAN, TUHAN mengajarkan saya lewat Piano bahwa: jangan cepat-cepat. Perlahan-lahan & Nikmati Prosesnya. Hasilnya pasti Bagus. :) AMEN. TUHAN Memberkati :)

"you have to know I haven't gone very far. when you sing, i'll be the notes. when you play the guitar, i'll be the strings. when you're frustrated, i'll be a bottle of beer. when you're lonely, i'll be a record." -First Time movie Ini kutipan dari film yang berjudul First Time. Film dengan China ini (yang tentunya ada terjemahannya) di mainkan dengan alur yang Bagus. Mirip-mirip sama ceritanya A Walk to Remember :D tanya kenapa? Soalnya endingnya sama! Genre Romantis yang bikin airmata meleleh, nyesek deh nontonnya, hahaaa. Awalnya, saya agak males nontonnya. Apalagi kan yang biasanya terkenal film korea tuh, nah pas teman saya nyodorin, ya saya copy aja di laptop, trus pas kehabisan stok film gara-gara tinggal skripsi (maklum, mahasiswa semester akhir tak punya kegiatan* alesan..wkwkwkw) nah, saya iseng" play filmnya trus dicepetin dikit. Eh, gag tahunya, bagus. Saya ulangin lagi deh nonton dari awal. Karena Film ini Bagus.Menarik. Benar-benar Menarik! Menariknya, alur ceritanya ternyata gag ketebak meski endingnya bisa ketahuan. Kenapa lagi? Tanya sutradaranya deh, hehe. Film-nya Bagus pokoknya, smpe malamnya saya ngimpiin cowok pemain utama yang lumayan cakep itu, wkwkwk XD Bukan cuman pemainnya yang cakep sih, tapi pesan dari film-nya dapet deh. Bukan cuman sekedar cinta sepasang kekasih tapi bagaimana pengorbanan cinta orang tua juga mengena banget. Pokoknya ni film : Recommended deh! ^^

Puji TUHAN akhirnyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa*shouted blog-ku bisa kebuka setelah 2 tahun lamanya gag nge-blog disini, soalnya saya lupa password blog ku sendiri..hahaaaa setelah saya lupa dan tidak bisa mengakses blog ini jadi benar-benar vakum alias hiatus alias gag nge-blog, hohoo =D

"Ever tried. Ever failed. No matter. Try Again. Fail again. Fail better."

~ Samuel Beckett

As a young man, Abraham Lincoln went to war a captain and returned a private. Afterwards, he was a failure as a businessman. As a lawyer in Springfield, he was too impractical and temperamental to be a success. He turned to politics and was defeated in his first try for the legislature, again defeated in his first attempt to be nominated for congress, defeated in his application to be commissioner of the General Land Office, defeated in the senatorial election of 1854, defeated in his efforts for the vice-presidency in 1856, and defeated in the senatorial election of 1858. At about that time, he wrote in a letter to a friend, "I am now the most miserable man living. If what I feel were equally distributed to the whole human family, there would not be one cheerful face on the earth."



Winston Churchill failed sixth grade. He was subsequently defeated in every election for public office until he became Prime Minister at the age of 62. He later wrote, "Never give in, never give in, never, never, never, never - in nothing, great or small, large or petty - never give in except to convictions of honor and good sense. Never, Never, Never, Never give up." (his capitals, mind you)


Socrates was called "an immoral corrupter of youth" and continued to corrupt even after a sentence of death was imposed on him. He drank the hemlock and died corrupting.



Sigmund Freud was booed from the podium when he first presented his ideas to the scientific community of Europe. He returned to his office and kept on writing.


Robert Sternberg received a C in his first college introductory-psychology class. His teacher commented that "there was a famous Sternberg in psychology and it was obvious there would not be another." Three years later Sternberg graduated with honors from Stanford University with exceptional distinction in psychology, summa cum laude, and Phi Beta Kappa. In 2002, he became President of the American Psychological Association.


Charles Darwin gave up a medical career and was told by his father, "You care for nothing but shooting, dogs and rat catching." In his autobiography, Darwin wrote, "I was considered by all my masters and my father, a very ordinary boy, rather below the common standard of intellect." Clearly, he evolved.


Thomas Edison's teachers said he was "too stupid to learn anything." He was fired from his first two jobs for being "non-productive." As an inventor, Edison made 1,000 unsuccessful attempts at inventing the light bulb. When a reporter asked, "How did it feel to fail 1,000 times?" Edison replied, "I didn’t fail 1,000 times. The light bulb was an invention with 1,000 steps."




"Our greatest glory is not in never falling but in rising every time we fall."

~ Confucius


Albert Einstein did not speak until he was 4-years-old and did not read until he was 7. His parents thought he was "sub-normal," and one of his teachers described him as "mentally slow, unsociable, and adrift forever in foolish dreams." He was expelled from school and was refused admittance to the Zurich Polytechnic School. He did eventually learn to speak and read. Even to do a little math.


Louis Pasteur was only a mediocre pupil in undergraduate studies and ranked 15th out of 22 students in chemistry.


Henry Fordfailed and went broke five times before he succeeded.


R. H. Macy failed seven times before his store in New York City caught on.


F. W. Woolworth was not allowed to wait on customers when he worked in a dry goods store because, his boss said, "he didn't have enough sense."



When Bell telephone was struggling to get started, its owners offered all their rights to Western Union for $100,000. The offer was disdainfully rejected with the pronouncement, "What use could this company make of an electrical toy."


John Garcia, who eventually was honored for his fundamental psychological discoveries, was once told by a reviewer of his often-rejected manuscripts that one is no more likely to find the phenomenon he discovered than to find bird droppings in a cuckoo clock. (sort of a cute critique actually)


Rocket scientist Robert Goddard found his ideas bitterly rejected by his scientific peers on the grounds that rocket propulsion would not work in the rarefied atmosphere of outer space.


Daniel Boone was once asked by a reporter if he had ever been lost in the wilderness. Boone thought for a moment and replied, "No, but I was once bewildered for about three days."




"Only those who dare to fail greatly can achieve greatly."
~ Robert F. Kennedy


An expert said of Vince Lombardi: "He possesses minimal football knowledge and lacks motivation." Lombardi would later write, "It's not whether you get knocked down; it's whether you get back up."


Michael Jordan and Bob Cousy were each cut from their high school basketball teams. Jordan once observed, "I've failed over and over again in my life. That is why I succeed."


Babe Ruth is famous for his past home run record, but for decades he also held the record for strikeouts. He hit 714 home runs and struck out 1,330 times in his career (about which he said, "Every strike brings me closer to the next home run.").And didn't Mark McGwire break that strikeout record?

(John Wooden once explained that winners make the most errors.)



Hank Aaron went 0 for 5 his first time at bat with the Milwakee Braves.



Stan Smith was rejected as a ball boy for a Davis Cup tennis match because he was "too awkward and clumsy." He went on to clumsily win Wimbledon and the U. S. Open. And eight Davis Cups.



Tom Landry, Chuck Noll, Bill Walsh, and Jimmy Johnson accounted for 11 of the 19 Super Bowl victories from 1974 to 1993. They also share the distinction of having the worst records of first-season head coaches in NFL history - they didn't win a single game.



Johnny Unitas's first pass in the NFL was intercepted and returned for a touchdown. Joe Montana's first pass was also intercepted. And while we're on quarterbacks, during his first season Troy Aikman threw twice as many interceptions (18) as touchdowns (9) . . . oh, and he didn't win a single game. You think there's a lesson here?



After Carl Lewis won the gold medal for the long jump in the 1996 Olympic games, he was asked to what he attributed his longevity, having competed for almost 20 years. He said, "Remembering that you have both wins and losses along the way. I don't take either one too seriously."




"Our achievements speak for themselves. What we have to keep track of are our failures, discouragements, and doubts. We tend to forget the past difficulties, the many false starts, and the painful groping. We see our past achievements as the end result of a clean forward thrust, and our present difficulties as signs of decline and decay."

~ Eric Hoffer


Walt Disney was fired by a newspaper editor because "he lacked imagination and had no good ideas." He went bankrupt several times before he built Disneyland. In fact, the proposed park was rejected by the city of Anaheim on the grounds that it would only attract riffraff.


Charles Schultz had every cartoon he submitted rejected by his high school yearbook staff. Oh, and Walt Disney wouldn't hire him.



After Fred Astaire's first screen test, the memo from the testing director of MGM, dated 1933, read, "Can't act. Can't sing. Slightly bald. Can dance a little." He kept that memo over the fire place in his Beverly Hills home. Astaire once observed that "when you're experimenting, you have to try so many things before you choose what you want, that you may go days getting nothing but exhaustion." And here is the reward for perseverance: "The higher up you go, the more mistakes you are allowed. Right at the top, if you make enough of them, it's considered to be your style."



After his first audition, Sidney Poitier was told by the casting director, "Why don't you stop wasting people's time and go out and become a dishwasher or something?" It was at that moment, recalls Poitier, that he decided to devote his life to acting.



When Lucille Ball began studying to be actress in 1927, she was told by the head instructor of the John Murray Anderson Drama School, "Try any other profession."



The first time Jerry Seinfeld walked on-stage at a comedy club as a professional comic, he looked out at the audience, froze, and forgot the English language. He stumbled through "a minute-and a half" of material and was jeered offstage. He returned the following night and closed his set to wild applause.



In 1944, Emmeline Snively, director of the Blue Book Modeling Agency, told modeling hopeful Norma

Jean Baker, "You'd better learn secretarial work or else get married." I'm sure you know that Norma Jean was Marilyn Monroe. Now . . . who was Emmeline Snively?



At the age of 21, French acting legend Jeanne Moreau was told by a casting director that her head was too crooked, she wasn't beautiful enough, and she wasn't photogenic enough to make it in films. She took a deep breath and said to herself, "Alright, then, I guess I will have to make it my own way." After making nearly 100 films her own way, in 1997 she received the European Film Academy Lifetime Achievement Award.




"Flops are a part of life's menu

and I've never been a girl to miss out on any of the courses."

~ Rosalind Russell



After Harrison Ford's first performance as a hotel bellhop in the film Dead Heat on a Merry-Go-Round, the studio vice-president called him in to his office. "Sit down kid," the studio head said, "I want to tell you a story. The first time Tony Curtis was ever in a movie he delivered a bag of groceries. We took one look at him and knew he was a movie star." Ford replied, "I thought you were spossed to think that he was a grocery delivery boy." The vice president dismissed Ford with "You ain't got it kid , you ain't got it ... now get out of here."


Michael Caine's headmaster told him, "You will be a laborer all your life."


Charlie Chaplin was initially rejected by Hollywood studio chiefs because his pantomime was considered "nonsense."


Enrico Caruso's music teacher said he had no voice at all and could not sing. His parents wanted him to become an engineer.


Decca Records turned down a recording contract with the Beatles with the unprophetic evaluation, "We don't like their sound. Groups of guitars are on their way out." After Decca rejected the Beatles, Columbia records followed suit.


In 1954, Jimmy Denny, manager of the Grand Ole Opry, fired Elvis Presley after one performance. He told Presley, "You ain't goin' nowhere, son. You ought to go back to drivin' a truck."


Beethoven handled the violin awkwardly and preferred playing his own compositions instead of improving his technique. His teacher called him "hopeless as a composer." And, of course, you know that he wrote five of his greatest symphonies while completely deaf.





"No matter how hard you work for success, if your thought is saturated with the fear of failure, it will kill your efforts, neutralize your endeavors and make success impossible."

~ Baudjuin


The Impressionists had to arrange their own art exhibitions because their works were routinely rejected by the Paris Salon. How many of you have heard of the Paris Salon?


A Paris art dealer refused Picasso shelter when he asked if he could bring in his paintings from out of the rain. One hopes that there is justice in this world and that the art dealer eventually went broke.


Van Gogh sold only one painting during his life. And this to the sister of one of his friends for 400 francs (approximately $50). This didn't stop him from completing over 800 paintings.


John Constable's luminous painting Watermeadows at Salisbury was dismissed in 1830 by a judge at the Royal Academy as "a nasty green thing." Name of the judge, anyone? Anyone?


Rodin's father once said, "I have an idiot for a son." Described as the worst pupil in the school, he was rejected three times admittance to the Ecole des Beaux-Arts. His uncle called him uneducable. Perhaps this gave him food for thought.


Stravinsky was run out of town by an enraged audience and critics after the first performance of the Rite of Spring.


When Pablo Casals reached 95, a young reporter asked him "Mr. Casals, you are 95 and the greatest cellist that ever lived. Why do you still practice six hours a day?" Mr. Casals answered, "Because I think I'm making progress."





"Little minds are tamed and subdued by misfortune;

but great minds rise above them."

~ Washington Irving


Leo Tolstoy flunked out of college. He was described as both "unable and unwilling to learn." No doubt a slow developer.


Louisa May Alcott, author of Little Women, was encouraged to find work as a servant by her family.


Emily Dickinson had only seven poems published in her lifetime.


15 publishers rejected a manuscript by e. e. cummings. When he finally got it published by his mother, the dedication, printed in uppercase letters, read WITH NO THANKS TO . . . followed by the list of publishers who had rejected his prized offering. Nice going Eddie. Thanks for illustrating that nobody loses all the time.


18 publishers turned down Richard Bach's story about a "soaring eagle." Macmillan finally published Jonathan Livingston Seagull in 1970. By 1975 it had sold more than 7 million copies in the U.S. alone.


21 publishers rejected Richard Hooker's humorous war novel, M*A*S*H. He had worked on it for seven years.


22 publishers rejected James Joyce's The Dubliners.


27 publishers rejected Dr. Seuss's first book, To Think That I Saw It on Mulberry Street.


Jack London received six hundred rejection slips before he sold his first story.


English crime novelist John Creasey got 753 rejection slips before he published 564 books.

William Saroyan accumulated more than a thousand rejections before he had his first literary piece published. Way to not take a hint, Bill!


Gertrude Stein submitted poems to editors for nearly 20 years before one was finally accepted. See . . . a rose is a rose.


I bet you didn't know that John Milton wrote Paradise Lost 16 years after losing his eyesight


One of Professor Pajares's first research efforts came back with a review that began, "There are so many things I don't like about this article I just don't know where to begin."

There is a professor at MIT who offers a course on failure. He does that, he says, because failure is a far more common experience than success. An interviewer once asked him if anybody ever failed the course on failure. He thought a moment and replied, "No, but there were two Incompletes."


Let's end with Woody Allen: "I don't want to achieve immortality through my work. I want to achieve it through not dying. Eighty percent of success is showing up."





"There is something to be said for keeping at a thing, isn't there?"
~ Frank Sinatra
Self-Efficacy Site :http://www.des.emory.edu/mfp/efficacynotgiveup.html